Food

It’s not uncommon for couples to share the same circle of friends. Nor is it uncommon for some of those friendships to fall away when the relationship does. People talk endlessly about betrayal by a partner—but no one warns you that betrayal by friends can hurt even worse.   I name this because the people I trusted keep choosing proximity to my ex and his affair partner while assuring me, privately, that they “have my back.” I’ve expressed my betrayal plainly, more than once.

Angry because the man who had an affair, walked away, and now acts like our marriage never existed still hasn’t signed the papers that would actually end it. He gets to live untethered—emotionally, socially, freely—while I remain legally bound to something he already destroyed. And somehow I’m  expected to “move on.” As if healing works best when you’re still technically someone’s wife on paper. (huge fan of that system.) How exactly am I supposed to start fresh when his last

I always knew I’d have to face death someday, but I never expected to experience a rebirth before turning thirty. This isn’t advice, or a guide, or anything polished. It’s just me, sitting with the wreckage of a marriage that ended long before the paperwork did, and learning to build a life from the ashes. If you’ve ever felt alone in your healing, this is for you.